I’m not sure in my first couple of posts if I truly answered why I’ve decided to start a blog or better said, I’m not sure I told the whole truth about why I want to blog. I think I said how we’re on this journey and others can learn from us. This is true. We are on a journey to live a simpler more intentional life and people can learn from us.
As you get to know me, you’ll learn that I’m a research nerd. I read everything I can get my hands on to get as much information as I can on a subject before I dive into pretty much anything. I learned a lot in my research about how to start a blog, but there’s a fatal flaw to my reading geekiness. Information overload. If I focus on all the things I’ve learned and try to set up these things all perfectly, I will never get any kind of blog going and I won’t be true to why I wanted to do this in the first place.
So, if I’m going to do this blog I have to begin. Look past all the information about how to do it and just do it–my way. I might fail miserably. I may find my stride and it will take on a life of its own. Either way, I’m willing to take the chance–to dare greatly as Brene Brown says. I’m sure I’ll have more to say about that as time passes but enough said there for now. The truth is that right now I’m doing this blog more for my own self than for other people. Here’s why I’m really writing:
I Want to Chronicle Our Family’s Intentional Choices
From a habit standpoint, I know that writing things down makes me more reflective and intentional. I write and I do. That’s just how I work. Especially now that I’m older. My brain is not a pliable and stretchy as it once was, so writing things down and looking at them often, ensures things get done. I also write to process and reflect. At the same time, blogging about being intentional will pay homage to the things we’ve deemed really important as a family. The things we eat, the things we wear, what we do, the way we think, and the way we live our lives. What makes us the Wise’s.
I Want to Make Sure my Kids have Roots
I don’t know if this is morbid, but I want to put pieces of myself out there that my girls can go back to after I’m gone. I want them to feel me, know who I was, know what I stood for, to know where they come from. I’ve not been consumed by the sharing, but as I’ve gotten older I realize that the girls need and want these roots. They’ve asked. Everything we do together, every conversation we have creates roots, but now that I know they are so much closer to graduation, I feel more of a push to make sure they know who they are. Having my own mother die at a young age took away my ability to understand and know her in the way my girls can know me. I want my girls to hear my voice and be able to know who I was, even after I’m gone.
I Want to Find My Own Voice as a Writer
Writing has been something I’ve thought about doing on and off during my adult life. Probably because I’m a big reader. I think to myself, “Wouldn’t it be great to be a fiction writer? They have amazing minds.” Alas, I’m not sure I have fictional stories to tell. Not at this point. Right now, the stories I have to tell are my own. They are the most pressing. So that’s where I’ll start. And in the telling, I hope to find my own voice.
It’s possible that I may not be a blogger, but how will I know if I don’t actually try it? There is no way at this point to know. There is only moving forward–and that’s what’s always stopped me before with writing. I’ve learned that walk toward things we are afraid of is a good thing. We don’t reach goals by sitting back and wishing. We reach them by doing.
I Want to Find Something I Enjoy Doing After I Retire
In the next ten years, it’s very likely that I will be retiring from teaching. Not to mention, the girls will be in a very different place in their lives. Life in our house will be very different. While the girls may still be at home, it will be a lot more of just Jeff and I. Today, most days are filled with kids. My school kids and our own kids. What they need. My brain is constantly running. Where will I put all that energy? I know I will need a creative outlet. Which is where blogging comes in. I don’t know if blogging is going to be the creative outlet that keeps me humming, but, maybe it could be. And wouldn’t it be great, if I enjoy it and it helps others at the same time? I can do that in my yoga pants on the couch.
I am curious why other people blog, so please feel free to share why you do in the comments, but more than anything else, I’m just happy to be here… starting. We’ll see where it goes. Have a Wise week!